最近

你最近很孤寒
怎麼了 為甚麼
是不是你最近很不幸被炒了

聽說你最近有麻煩,
有点乱 有点慌
所以我覺得應該離開你身旁

你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
我能給的 我卻只能夠給你爛底褲

給我滾遠遠你真不要臉
好幾次看到你在街邊我都想要吐

你常掩飾而且每天騙三歲小孩子
我下一次好好教訓你痛打你幾頓

不要講耶穌 不要再投訴

這一次我放你一條生路

頭痛！！！

post #87

已經兩個月沒來update我的blog了.. 這段日子好忙好辛苦， 上班時間每個星期一直在調整， 根本無法適應。現在簡直是人不像人，鬼不像鬼。

５am上班，時間半天吊。拜六又要考試，讀書讀不進腦。上網沒什麼搞，對ＦＡＣＥＢＯＯＫ開始有點悶。可能會慢慢減少使用，因為確實浪費很多時間。

最近看到很多朋友online都沒去理。不知為何，現在我開始不愛講太多話。我不再像以前那樣會和朋友說個不停... 就是沒那種心情。 而且有時候只想一個人靜靜的在家裡。對於身邊的事物覺得提不起興趣，也懶得過問。

也許工作很壓力很累吧。其實有時候我想擁有自己的空間。我希望能有多餘的時間可以休息。
總覺得心靈疲累。

這兩個標籤代表我的性格.

September#

已經是九月了.. 時間過的好快好快好快.. OMG!! 還剩下3個月就要告別2009年. 糊里糊塗又過了一年~ 開始要認老啦.. 再另外5年就踏入30黃金歲葉.. **怕什麼!? 還有5年的時間嘛..(說的瀟灑) 雖然看似漫長, 一眨眼5年很快過.
5年前曾經許下一個心願.. 但如今還是一場空.. (真失敗!) 5年的時間就這樣白白浪費了.. 無法想像5年後會是怎樣?


某人說:
***不要感叹自己的生活都是在浪费时间啊！！如果你觉得是的话，就改变个想法，让自己积极起来，生命可以活得很精彩！！当你找到自己喜欢的东西时，我想还会嫌时间不够用呢！！***


某人說:
**要搞清楚什么才是对自己最重要的，不要因为工作而忽略了一些对你很重要的人、事、物..***



這兩句話很有道理.. 但有時真的很矛盾.. 明明已經知道該怎樣做, 明明很清楚自己的去向.. 就是跨不出去.. 總是猶疑不絕.
接下來的5年, 不想再犯同樣的錯.. (應該是說不能再犯同樣的錯).. 所以我需要改變.. 就從現在起..

9月.. 這段日子會很壓力.. 我一定要熬過去~

BoRiNG LiFe

-_-" 才發現原來有13個未完成的帖子留在draft裡. 忘了這些帖子是想寫些什麼.. DELETE掉算了~
開始對BLOG沒什麼興趣.. 來來去去都是那幾句.. 可見我的生活是那麼沒意義, 一點都不精采! (好像曾在某一天寫過這句話)..

無聊的星期天.. 想出門但很累, 結果睡了整天. 其實在家也好, 可以多點休息, 又不用浪費錢.

自從轉了新部門, 就覺得世界顛倒了哦.. 上班時間9pm-6am.. 整個月裡能和朋友們見面的機會最多3-4次.. T_T 現在唯一常見的就是同事們.. 但開始分班了.. 可能也會很難碰面. 另一方面.. 我的寶貝最近身體不舒服, 而我無法隨時陪伴她. (心疼~)

明天又是一個新的星期開始.. 只盼望每一天都是風平浪靜.. 同時很期待周末的來臨~

...

其實自己過得還不錯

i'll be back soon~

明天会更好

轻轻敲醒沉睡的心灵
慢慢张开你的眼睛
看看忙碌的世界
是否依然孤独的转个不停
春风不解风情
吹动少年的心
让昨日脸上的泪痕
随记忆风干了
抬头寻找天空的翅膀
候鸟出现它的影迹
带来远处的饥荒无情的战火
依然存在的消息
玉山白雪飘零
燃烧少年的心
使真情溶化成音符
倾诉遥远的祝福
唱出你的热情伸
出你的双手
让我拥抱着你的梦
让我拥有你真心的面孔
让我们的笑容
充满着青春的骄傲
为明天献出虔诚的祈祷

谁能不顾自己的家园
抛开记忆中的童年
谁能忍心看那昨日的忧愁
带走我们的笑容
青春不解红尘
胭脂沾染了灰
让久违不见的泪水
滋润了你的面容
唱出你的热情
伸出你的双手
让我拥抱着你的梦
让我拥有你真心的面孔
让我们的笑容
充满着青春的骄傲
为明天献出虔诚的祈祷

轻轻敲醒沉睡的心灵
慢慢张开你的眼睛
看看忙碌的世界
是否依然孤独的转个不停
日出唤醒清晨
大地光彩重生
让和风拂出的音响
谱成生命的乐章
唱出你的热情伸
出你的双手
让我拥抱着你的梦
让我拥有你真心的面孔
让我们的笑容充
满着青春的骄傲
让我们期待着明天会更好

再見!

踏正12AM.. 好不容易到了這一刻.. 04/07/2009-此時正式宣布結束了在台灣信用卡客服中心TWNCCCC的生涯. 這9個月08天的日子裡確實不是很好受, 無論如何終於脫離了這部門. 再見啦630號(30C)專員, 再見啦爛客戶!!..
當離開這部門時, 心裡頓時有點酸酸的感覺.. 真的有點捨不得.. 但捨不得的不是這爛部門喔, 而是因為一半以上的同事都調到別的部門去.. 在這裡所建立的友誼也就這樣說BYE BYE了.. 很遺憾, 很可惜. 如果全部TWNCCCC的同事都調到同一個部門, 那該多好!!

朋友

繁星流动 和你同路
从不相识 开始心接近
默默以真挚待人
人生如梦 朋友如雾
难得知心 几经风暴
为着我不退半步 正是你
遥遥晚空点点星光息息相关
你我那怕荆棘铺满路
替我解开心中的孤单
是谁明白我
情同两手一起开心一起悲伤
彼此分担不分我或你
你为了我 我为了你
共赴患难绝望里 紧握你手
朋友

信用卡

自從有了信用卡.. 覺得現在消費比以前更夠力..
以前: 總會想到錢不多,不夠用.. 就不敢亂亂買東西.. 能省就省..
現在: 想都沒想.. 碌卡先.. 到時再還. 所謂: "先洗未來錢" ..
其實信用卡有好也有壞.. 如果懂得善意使用.. 確實幫了不少忙. 但如果濫用.. 就會欠一屁股債囉..
不行了.. 要控制一下自己.. 不然越用越多時.. 到時碌爆卡就慘了..

無題... 純粹發癲

最近覺得自己好像精神分裂, 荷爾蒙失調, 心理不平衡, 情緒時高時低, 恍恍惚惚, 睡眠不足, 沒精打采, 思想不清晰, 腦袋失靈, 疑神疑鬼, 坐立不安, 自言自語, 九唔撘八, 時時發呆.. . . . 到底我在幹嘛??

越來越沒心情上班.. 而且也不是很想到公司.. 唉~好無奈! 做工這麼辛苦為了什麼? 就是為了那兩千多塊養活自己! 不過卻賣了的自由, 和時間.. 想下有時真的很不值得.. but, what to do???

如果我有100萬!!
哇哈哈... 第一時間炒老闆魷魚..

(發夢還太早.. )

下半年~

已經好久沒寫BLOG了.. 最近都很忙.. 也沒有心情~
才剛趕完assignment而已, 考試又要到了.. 唉! 一點都讀不進腦. 工作上很累, 這幾個星期上班的時間都不定. 一時5PM-2AM, 一時10AM-7AM, 一時3PM-12AM, 一時9AM-6PM.. 我的天!!! 我就快崩潰了..
不過還是要適應, 因為...
下個月起.. 就會面臨新的挑戰.. 從"爛部門"轉換到"精英部門".. 壓力會開始越來越大.. 而工作時間比現在還慘.. .. .. 是非一般人能接受得到的時間. 別人睡著覺, 我在上班.. 別人上著班, 我在睡覺. 完全是和所有人脫離了關係那樣~ 有點緊張+興奮.. 新部門不知會是怎樣?! 到底我能適應嗎???? 我撐得住嗎???? 這是件好事還是壞事呢? 往後的日子... 會是怎樣?? 或許會比上半年好吧!
既來之,則安之~ 還是見機行事吧~


光陰似箭, 就這樣糊里糊塗的過了半年.. 6個月的時間到底做了些什麼?!?! 就只有"忙".. 有時候人生就像一場球賽~
"上半場踢完了, 成績不是很理想.. 沒關係! 球賽一旦還沒踢完, 還是有機會扭轉乾坤~ 還有下半場可以再補救." 以往的日子不管是過得怎樣, 無所謂! 接下來還有半年的時間, 好好的保握每一分每一秒.. 盡量讓日子過得更精彩~

希望一切順順利利..

雙面人

沒想到你真的很會演戲~ 我幾乎完完全全被你騙了.
不知該如何去面對你. 頓時對你的感覺就是很陌生. 你已變成另外一個人了.
慢慢發現你越來越多故事, 看來我現在才真正了解你的為人. my GOD!! 忽然無法消化. 原來還有很多令我意想不到的事情 一直都隱藏著. 但如今無意被我拆穿了. 你一直都戴著面具做人.
到底你說的一切是真還是假? 我是否該繼續相信你嗎?

希望你別當我是傻瓜..


如果已知道對方的底牌... 還能再維持下去嗎?
我真的不敢想像下去. 我唯有只能扮無知!?

人有要求是理所當然, 但要求太高, 只會令自己覺得壓力, 且帶來不必要的煩惱.. 想追求百分百完美? 別傻了, 這世上沒有百分百完美的事物. 每個人的需求都不一樣! 其實你並沒有錯! 我不能怪你.. 畢竟這就是你的人格. 但我真的受夠了.. 我已絕望了.. i'm speechless.. 真的無話可說! 既然你這樣有本事, 你走吧. 去追尋你的夢想吧, 別為了一顆樹, 放棄了一片森林. 你會過得更幸福. 人就是那麼的現實, 試問有谁真的能夠共度患難呢? 如果有得選擇, 相信所有人都希望可以過著榮華富貴的生活, 而不是粗茶淡飯吧. 承諾.. 是否真的能到永久? 之前說得如何動聽, 都是假的嗎? 不然為何一而再, 再而三的毀諾? 人比人, 比死人. 拜託! 我就是我.. 別拿別人來做比較. 還埋怨不夠? 我不成熟? 有口說人, 沒口說自己! 用心去想想吧.

最近身邊的朋友, 個個都很沮喪, 心事重重.. 什麼原因呢? 事業, 家庭, 愛情, 友誼?! 八九不離十.. 來來去去就是這幾個問題. 人生如常.. 谁不會有煩惱?! 再如何堅強的人都會有脆弱的一刻, 無論男女都一樣. 如果人沒煩惱那該多好~ 這是沒可能的事!
我常對自己說: "凡是看開點, 別想得那麼複雜, 做人就會快活很多." "今天不如意, 明天會更好"
有時候不是只靠說而已這麼容易..

以為一切真的雨過天晴, 但陰天還是會再來;
以為一切真的能看得開, 原來只是自欺欺人.

人生還有很遙遠的路程, 如何過得更精彩?

世上只有媽媽好.. i love u mum ~

友人曾經問我, 為何從來沒什麼聽我提起我的家人~ 是喔! 我都覺得很少會提到我家人.. 不覺得有什麼好提的.. 也懶得去提, 所以就不是很想提起. 提到他門, 有時一睹火(以上是在都講著我哥哥們).. 其實我一點都不了解他們.. 從不過問他們的事.
在家裡, 只有我和我媽兩個人一起住. 他們都搬到外面去了. 好不公平!!!!! 排行最小的, 就得留在媽媽身邊照顧她.. (可是我自己都顧不了自己), 不是應該家中最大的來承擔這個責任嗎?! 沒關係~ 那就讓我來吧!

"人人有阿媽", 但有些人比較不幸, 從小就失去了媽媽, 沒嘗過什麼是母愛. 我很同情她/他們, 我覺得他們真的很可憐, 我也替他們感到遺憾.
"世上只有媽媽好, 媽媽最偉大" (那當然爸爸也是很好的..別忽略了他喔!!)

昨天是母親節, 說起來有點慚愧.. 有史以來第一次幫媽媽慶祝. 那以往呢? 都是不在家, 只買了補品(燕窩)給她, 而且每年都是一樣(想起來覺得自己有點沒用).. 去年我媽就說別再浪費錢買東西給她了, 所以今年就不買了, 帶她出去慶祝, 其實也不算慶祝啦, 只是帶她出外吃東西(很普通的一餐飯). 當我叫她不要煮飯出去吃時, 我媽覺得很意外(>.<) 看見媽媽吃得很開心, 雖然她沒當面說出來.. 喔!屎!(oh! shit!) 竟然忘了說聲"母親節快樂".... 應該不要緊吧.. 媽媽應該"收到"我心意吧~

我媽今年63歲了.. 人老了體弱多病.. 真叫人擔憂.. 有時看她在家一腳踢, 想幫又幫不了這麼多, 越幫越忙.. 而且有時還很懶惰幫忙.. ~我好沒用! =.='' (難聽的講:"無lan用") 自從爸爸走了以後, 我媽確實比起以前辛苦得更多. 多年以來, 媽媽千辛萬苦的養育我們長大, 不管我們發生什麼事都奮不顧身為我們撐腰~ 在我人生最潦倒的時候, 媽媽總是在身邊支持我們, 陪伴我們度過難關.. 而且毫無任何怨言.. 為了甚麼?? 就是希望我們有一天能出人頭地.. 所以我不會讓她失望, 我一定要讓她享福. 我一定要好好報答媽媽. 沒什麼比媽媽的恩惠還要重要!

今天病得七彩, 做了半天就回家.. 媽媽看到我的貓樣, 很焦急.. 基本上我是已經 blur blur 地了.. 回到家直接躺在床上動也不動.. 媽媽不但煮麵給我, 還褒了涼茶.. 我頓時覺得很感動, 在這時刻, 媽媽在身邊照顧我.. 讓我重新體會到這世上: 親情;母愛勝過任何一切. 可是一直以來, 媽媽都很關心我們的, 以前也不是這樣子照顧我們嗎? 以前每次病了, 媽媽都會照顧我們啊!! 怎麼以前不會有這種感覺呢?? 其實是我們忽略了.. 就只會覺得"這是必然的".. 才不會覺得感動! 其實是我一直以來, 不曾領情! 所以今天.. 我特別感觸.. 我開始學會了什麼叫感恩.

從今日起, 我會抽出更多的時間來陪媽媽. 儘量不要讓她這麼辛苦. 我一定做得到!
"媽, 對不起, 一直以來讓您操心了.. 以前只會頂撞, 反駁, 對你大聲說話, 你講多就覺得你煩.. 我知錯了. 今日起我會好好的對待您"
媽媽我愛你!


在此也祝各位:
願天下所有的媽媽~"母親節快樂"

空虛

好無聊.. 在這夜深人靜的時刻能做些什麼呢? 漫漫長夜何處去?
忽然覺得有點空虛感. i dunno y!? 或許是沒人陪吧.. 也沒事做.
腦袋空白, 毫無頭緒. 到底我在想著什麼? ... ... ... .... nothing!
就快發霉了.. 今晚的時間好像過得特別慢~ 很悶..
想睡但無法入眠.. 開始又對著電腦發呆.. 看看手機, 沒有sms沒有missed call..
其實我早已麻木了, 習慣了這樣的生活. 但今晚就是感覺孤獨.. 空虛.
算了! 不寫了.. 都不知自己在寫什麼~

國殘車

%$#@!! AGAIN!! 大佬!! 不要醬啦好不好.. 一次又一次發生問題. 這裡壞那裡壞! 修了好多次了咧!
不是冷氣, 就是engine.. 而且很吃油... 現在到費氣喉爆裂. 車房佬還說, clutch皮就快光了要換, 大概 600~700塊!!
哇!你老板!哪裡惦喔... 老兄這樣下去不是辦法.. 所以我已經決定, 換車!
架了你兩年半, 就修了兩年半.. 養你真痛苦~ T_T 後悔買了你, 要不是當初因為急著要車, 才不會這樣衝動. 不過買了你也好啦, 去哪都方便..
頭痛~ 不知要買什麼車好!! 首先要考慮自己的經濟能力... -_-" 不能買貴貴的.. MYVI? SATRIA NEO? SAGA? 先問問看能把你賣多少錢.. 再survey看看車價.. hohoho... 好興奮.....

但願能長久

好花不常開, 好景不常在. 許多美好的事物, 卻是不能長久.
天下沒有不散宴席. 今天與你有緣相識, 但沒多久就說離別.
快樂時刻總過得特別快, 一瞬間就消失, 剎那一切成為回憶.
再怎樣難兄難弟的好友, 也會有變得陌生的一天, 漸漸疏遠.
一切一切.. 都是很短暫. 就像一場夢.
無論几甜美的夢, 最後還是會從睡夢中驚醒.

即使不能長久,
至少曾經擁有.


歲月不留人, 日子一天一天慢慢的流走.
人有悲歡離合, 月有陰晴圓缺
今天不知明天會發生什麼事.
在還沒失去之前, 在還來得急挽留之前.
好好珍惜目前所擁有的一切,
好好珍惜身邊所認識的每一個人.
一旦錯過, 無補於事.

既然不能長久,
就要好好把握.

1+1=2

人生當中總會遇到不少問題.. 有大有小. 簡單與複雜. 但無論如何,再怎麼棘手的問題, 總有解決的方法.

比如說: 1+1=2. 是很簡單的問題吧!!
但很多時候,人就是會這樣想:
1+1 = 什麼? 是2嗎? 不會就是那麼簡單吧?! 一定有陰謀的..
@%#&$.. 1+1不就是=2嘛. 還要想這麼多?! 日常生活裡, 是不是經常都會遇到像"1+1 =?"這種簡單的問題, 而想了老半天? 相信大部分的人都嘗試過吧.
人有真的很奇怪,明明是一道很簡單的問題, 但是就是要把它複雜化.. 明明1+1=2, 確要想一堆的! 什麼樣的答案都有. 人是不是總愛想太多? 自己拿來煩.? 有些人還喜歡小題大作.. 小小的問題,卻搞到很大件事的.
..

親愛的朋友們:
凡是看開點, 別想得那麼複雜, 做人就會快活很多.
1+1就是=2. 就是這麼簡單.

雨過天晴

一早起床感覺很美好.. 昨夜睡得很舒服.. 毫無煩惱和憂慮,
也許是因為太過累了吧.
整個人輕鬆了很多, 內心也平靜了.
經過不少風風雨雨.. 反反覆覆.. 一切恢復正常, 回到原點.
終於雨過天晴了 :-)

愛情是靠自己去經營,而不是隨著身邊朋友的遭遇,或是別人的經歷去判斷.
當您的感情世界本來是很美好的..但身邊的朋友對愛情的觀念與想法一個一個是負面的,那我相信,您也會開始對愛情的看法會有所改革.
為何人往往就是不敢相信自己的眼光?而聽從友人的話做出決定.

世上沒有了真愛? 我說是廢話.
是您遇上了但就是不肯相信. 就老是半信半疑. 不停拿以前的遭遇來比較.
過去的您如何被傷害,不代表永遠所遇到的愛情都是悲劇.
心房打不開, 永遠都體會不到什麼是愛!?

"十個男人九個賤!" 這句話簡直是對我們男人非常不公平!
每段失敗的感情,一定就是男人的錯嗎?
"女人是多麼的現實" 不好意思觸犯了女性.. 但這是事實! 但也不是每個女人都是這樣啊!
"每個男人都是一樣!" 請問.. 什麼一樣呢? 一樣都是衰人!? 那好的呢? 死了嗎?
朋友說..朋友說.. 朋友說什麼你就聽.. 腦袋只會想著: 男人如何對女人不好! 男人如何欺騙女人!


某年某月某日...
"我不是不信你,但我不會是百分百投入感情.. 對不起是我對男人真的沒信心."
當您當初說了這句話時,我根本不知這段感情何為情? 我已被判了死刑!
但我相信會有一天我能改變您的想法.
日子一天又一天的過去.一年半了,我做的一切還是沒辦法達到您的要求.是我做得不夠好嗎?
我嘗試改變自己.

因為我學歷不高,我繼續求學.
因為我的職業沒前途,我轉行.
我不懂什麼是未來?也從沒想過,但現在我開始懂得計畫.


世上沒有人是100%完美的..十隻手指都有長短.
對不起,我已盡我所能!

"不要以為你做這麼多東西,就覺得自己很偉大!" 這句話. .
測底打擊了我信心,我真的很絕望!
那麼我所做的都是白費的.?!

這段情對您而言,是不是可無可有?! 你的表情已給了我答案.

無論如何
這一切都不重要了, 我已經累了.
一切是我的錯,
錯在我不夠了解你.
錯在我無法做好該做的本分.

或許從今以後,我在人人眼裡,會是所謂的賤男人! 在您內心裡,永遠留下創傷.

對不起.
讓您在這段日子已來受盡委屈.

謝謝您
讓我嘗試過愛情美好的一刻.

請好好保重.

我的同事就快結婚啦.. 就在6月6號.. 恭喜恭喜..
在此祝她們 [白頭偕老,早生貴子]
雖然和她不是很熟..但還是中了紅炸彈!!
最近都一直聽到很多人要結婚了.. (這麼爽啊!!??) LOL
當中有一位舊同學好像也是在6月
另外還有一位舊同事也是在今年底結婚..
看來也是走不掉的啦.. :P

今天拿了半天AL, 因為要去醫院幫媽媽拿藥. 真是麻煩.. 唉.. 沒辦法.. 家裡只有我才能幫到她.. 我哥哥? 算了吧! 叫他門>比登天還難!
也好! 反正今天懶得要做工.. 拿了藥,回家可以睡覺.

回到家時...

[我哥的女兒]
睡覺!!! 哇咾!!! 這樣子都睡得下~ 佩服佩服!! -_-"
睡到像豬那樣.. 真的很好笑咧!!!




hmmm... 沒事做好無聊!! 想睡又睡不著.. 好鬼熱~



友人說... 我的BLOG很沉悶.. 黑漆漆的.. 好悲哀的感覺~ (什麼嘛..黑色代表神秘啦)
那確實連我自己看了有時也覺得蠻sien的.. 好吧, 既然這樣得空.. 就改一改吧!
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搞惦~ 看起來還不錯啦~

日子又過了一天...
明天是勞動節!!! 但還是要做工.. T_T
好羨慕不用做工的朋友.. 可以去玩!
早知我也拿AL! ~

過去半年以來幾乎都很少寫BLOG,甚至整個月都沒有貼子.有時候真的很懶得寫,寫到一半就停下,放在DRAFT裡,很久後才去理.再不然有時寫了,不爽就DELETE掉. 那到底我寫BLOG為了甚麼?

其實我也不知道.. 想寫就寫啊.. 那寫來幹嘛? 打發時間吧!!
寫了誰看? 只有我看. 誰會理呢? 無所謂! 我才不在乎.
當我有心事就寫BLOG,心裡有話想說但不知要說給谁聽. 又或者沒MOOD提..乾脆把它寫下來. 聽起來好像很無聊. 那和自言自語沒分別吧. 沒辦法,朋友不多就是這樣子囉. 看看別人的BLOG,很多東西分享,吃喝玩樂..樣樣都有,很精彩. 而我呢? 沒什麼好分享.

有時很想寫BLOG. 很多很多東西想把它寫下來..但不知要怎麼寫,不知從哪開始. 坐在電腦前思考了很久,到最後還是上床睡覺好了. 我試過對著電腦呆了幾小時,從11點多到4點,才寫了幾句. 偶爾還要看有沒有靈感.靈感一到就寫個沒完沒了..

還是覺得用華語寫作比較好, 寫得比較順暢.. 當然囉..畢竟還是華校出生的嘛..哈哈!! 所以我終於明白為甚麼時常寫了幾天幾月,都寫不出一個BLOG. 因為我的英文真的很爛!! -_-" 有時根本不懂要怎樣用英文來表達某些事.. 所以我決定以後還是寫華語好了..

不寫了,有點懒.. 是時候要睡了. . 各位晚安. . :)

working + studying

exam finished~ arh.. feel so great.. can start relax now..
hmm, hopefully the exam can pass.. I really HATE financial accounting! debit credit debit credit.. @#$%^&*! almost gt mad! anyway.. it's over!!


time's gone so fast. it's been 8 mnths already. stil hv another 7 mnths to go, to complete my part-time diploma course. (then continue for the degree)

when ppl asking me : "how's ur study?"
well.. so far so good i think..

honestly, its not easy. really stressed. . i'm gonna mad! its tiring..
wat to do!? it's about my future. i've to keep it up.
working + studying really 'gan koh' . . it's definitely hard for those ppl who r stupid and lazy like me. sometimes no mood to study, bcoz really tired after finished work.

some ppl said: "it jst a little bit thing.. very hard meh?.. dun complaint so much la."
i feel hurt and very unhappy!!
what the.. ..!!! u thought really easy ar!!! u go n try la!


how i wish i can go for travel. i wish to go to HK, Taiwan, Japan, Paris, London. . .. **dreaming**
but i can't!! because i need to work & study. i've no time at all. i can't simply go for travel.
and the prblm is... i still dun hv passport!! -_-"

anyway, i'm planning to go to Sg. *MAYBE!*
hmm.. . see how la..

-.-
working and studying... .. . . whatelse i can do in my life?

rainbow

Oh.. wow.. what a beatiful rainbow. . . long time nvr seen it.
well, it reminded me a song:

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.

There's a land that i heard of Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.

And the dreams that you dare to dream,

Really do come true.

Someday i'll wish upon a star and

Wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops,

Away above the chimney tops.

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly.

Birds fly over the rainbow,

Why then - oh, why can't i?

If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,

Why, oh, why can't i?

idiut... brainless.. bakayaro!!

arh!!! wat a bad day.. early morning 'F' by customer.. somemore it's the 1st incoming call lei!!!
stupid, idiot, brainless!!!

really spoilt my mood..

the call's almost 13mins. . whole conversation jst listened to the fxxking Shit customer blaming only.. helo! its not my fault! i tried to help n i did watever i can do..
he is a pig! explained to him alrd, but he still dont want to listen.. wat a stubborn donkey!

really dont understand, how come gt tis kind of ppl in the world!
well it's sickening, irritating, and annoying!!

i'm gonna crazy..
aiks.. almost everyday kena 'F'.. walao!!! i'm human leh!! thy nvr think bout us, our feeling!! jst balme blame blame n blame..

'customers are alwys right??' .. Na!! wth!! so wat!
sometimes there's some of the customers simply called in for nothing, jst blaming only.. 'F' us like shit!!! wat thy think we r ????

anyway.. tis is my job.. wat to do?!
jst gimme a break!!


........... idiut!

stupid me!

she used to call me whenever she goin out.
she will sms me to let me knw where she goin.

i'm so stupid, when i called her, she was on the way goin out to find her friends.
n i was nearby her hs. anyway.. i nvr predict it ..
she didn't ask me where am i as well. i think no point to tell her although she ask.

we meet up on weekend, twice a week. n it jst only few hrs whn we met up. wat to do, both of us r busy of working.

she said, she dun hv her own time n freedom. .. (excuse me.. i jst meet u on weekend only..)

once i didn't find her, she will try to gt her own entertainment.
perhaps i shouldn't find her, so tht she can hv much more time to hang around wit their friends. tis is wat she hope.


"jst a moment we meet up. .for wat? tht's nothing different." she said!
well ,i tot she will aprreciate every moments although it jst a few hrs. .. .

anyway,

i won't control her life.. n i always told her... : "do watever u like to do. ."
n of course i hope she would be happier.

up & down, up & down . . .

till when it will bcm constant?

跟往事干杯 - 姜育恒

经过了许多事
你是不是觉得累
这样的心情
我曾有过几回
也许是被人伤了心
也许是无人可了解
现在的你
我想一定很疲惫
人生际遇就象酒
有的苦 有的烈
这样的滋味你我早晚要体会
也许那伤口还流着血
也许那眼角还有泪
现在的你让我陪你喝一杯
干杯, 朋友
就让那一切成流水
把那往事
把那往事当作一场宿醉
明日的酒杯莫再要装着昨天的伤悲
请与我举起杯跟往事干杯
举起杯跟往事干杯

i'm tired..

i've nothing to say..
my mind is blank.
i dunno wat else i can do.
is there anyone can listen to me?
is there anyone ?

i guess 'NO'..
who will care bout me?
who the hell i am!

i feel so depressed..
is tht anything can cheer me up?


watever,
jst gimme a break!

LOVE is...

Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.
I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.
I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

If One Day...

If one day you feel like crying...
Call me.
I may not able to make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.

If one day you want to run away...
call me.
I may not able to ask you to stop,
But I can run with you

If one day you need someone to talk..
Call me.
I may not able to talk so much,
butI promise i'll be the good listener


But if one day you call...
And there is no answer...
i know that u miss me.
and I'll be there for you.

anytime.

is that too late?
is tht everything's over or tis is the new beginning?
i was wrong.. now i only realised tht.
wat's goin on?
the situation's out of control.
my GOD.. it worst thn wat i expected.
perhaps.. tis is the last chance.
tell me wat should i do.
i'm lost.

simple is the beauties

thank u so much

thanks for being wit me,
thanks for everything u did,
thnks for changing my life,
thanks for gv me ur precious time,
thnks for loving me so much,
thnks for caring me so much,
i really appreciate u and thanks.

I LOVE U.

'i want to find some one tht can care bout me'. .
tis is wat r u thinking of.. means tht i'm not care u enough.. so, everything i did.. all useless..
thn wat is 'care' meaning of u??
u hope not to see each other so often. ok, thn i jst meet u twice a week..
u dun 1 everydays and night keep calling and sms each other, cz u wannna hv more times for urself, u wana hv more space. ok, thn i less calling to u. .
wherever we wanna go, u will think bout ur family 1st.. ok, thn i try to changed the plan..
u said u r scare, not ready yet.. ok i respect u.. i din force u.
u wanna go out wit ur friens, and dun 1 i follow. ok, go ahead..
u dun like i go out so frequent.. ok, i stay at home whole day and sleep early..
everything i listened to u, i followed wat u wants.. in the end u said i not cares bout u.. Wat the. .. so tell me wat u really want me to do to satisfy u?? wat u want me to do so u feel tht i'm care bout u??
u dun 1 to tell me.. thn how i knw wat u really want???!!!! if all of this not consider care bout u.. thn i gt nothing to say..
u kicking me out today!! u nvr do tis to me b4! u r changed.. perhaps.. u r bored d.. u dun 1 to see me.. although i'm waiting right there..
u knw urself.. me too .. but do u really think of my feeling??
think of urself first b4 u wanna say all of tis to me!

well, i guess useless i'm talking so much..

relaxing saturday

whole day at home.. nothing to do and no place to go.. jst sleeep.. sleep.. and sleep.. like a pig. was thinking to go out but feels no mood.. .. i'm alone. nobody at home.. turned on the tv.. all the dramas and movies are boring.. look at my phone (no incoming call, no SMS).. biasa la..
wat to do?? she's not around.. enjoying her trip.. well, i've think to find some entertainment.. hmm.. but i'm lazy.. anyway, its good to be staying at home..
although bored but feel so relaxing.. :)

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A healthy sex life: 10 reasons to make love

some 1 unknown fwd tis to my mail.. i'm gonna share it in my blog.. bcz it's for common knowledge and everybody should knw bout it.. (i'm not ham sap o..) :P

"Evidence points to the many health benefits of an active sex life. Sex Made Easy, an article published in Men's Health Magazine, gives 10 healthy reasons to hop into bed -- a reminder that making love is good for both body and soul. "


Exercise. "Sexual activity is a form of physical exercise," according to Dr. Michael Cirigliano of the University of Pennsylvania School of Medicine. Making love three times a week burns around 7,500 calories in a year -- the equivalent of jogging 75 miles.

Heavy Breathing. A night of love can raise the amount of oxygen in cells, helping to keep organs and tissues functioning at their peak.

Strong Bones and Muscles. "Any kind of physical exercise is going to increase testosterone," states Dr. Karen Donahey, director of the Sex and Marital Therapy Program at Chicago's Northwestern University Medical Center. Testosterone is believed to help keep men's bones and muscles strong.

Lowered Cholesterol. Making love regularly can lower levels of the body's total cholesterol slightly, while positively changing the ratio of good-to-bad cholesterol.

Pain Relief. Sex can lower levels of "arthritic pain, whiplash pain and headache pain," according to Dr. Beverly Whipple, president-elect of the American Association of Sex Educators, Counselors and Therapists. Hormones that are released during sexual excitement and orgasm can elevate pain thresholds.

DHEA -- Without Supplements. DHEA (dehydroepiandrosterone), a popular supplemental hormone, is released naturally during lovemaking. "Just before orgasm and ejaculation," Crenshaw says, "DHEA spikes to levels three to five times higher than usual."

Prostate Protection. Researchers say prostate trouble may arise or be worsened by fluid buildup within the gland. Regular ejaculation will help wash out those fluids. Be cautious when suddenly changing frequency -- sudden changes may also trigger prostate problems.

Stress Relief. "Sex can be a very effective way of reducing stress levels," Donahey told Men's Health.

Love Will Keep Us Together. Crenshaw says affectionate touch will increase levels of oxytocin -- the "bonding hormone." Oxytocin is a desire-enhancing chemical secreted by the pituitary. Regular oxytocin release may help encourage frequent lovemaking.

Hormones -- Naturally. "Regular lovemaking can increase a woman's estrogen level, protect her heart and keep her vaginal tissues more supple," states Donahey.

SOURCE: Men's Health (November 1997, p. 104-108)
http://parenting.ivillage.com/newborn/nmomcare/0,,446m,00.html

so, do it wit the right way.. :)

WHY??

Y? 100 Y in my mind. . i really cant gt any answer of Y u want to do tis?!
on the way bck my home.. i'm sad.. i'm disappointed.. y u want to treat me like tis? Y u lie? i trusted on u so much. .
i knw my qualification is not good... u hope to gt a better life.. i'm wonder, y u pick me up? if nowaday u r still looking around.. .
suddenly feels tht u r different. i feel stranged on u..
u r innocent?? not really.. i dont think so.. u r so smart.. till i nvr think tht u will lie and do tis to me.
I HATE people LYING..
i really dont knw wat r u thinking of? u lie at me bcz of u wanna gt to knw other guys.. what the F is tis the way u treat me? u always worried i will lie.. but now u did it.. tht time when u asked me "do U trust me?" ofcz i will.. but now? ? ? how u wan i trust u ?
i tried to rub it off frm my mind.. i tot bcz of the 'freedom' issue.. so u dont let me go.. i understand.. i accept the reason.. yes u r right.. sometimes u want ur own freedom and ur own space. but, i still feels tht something wrong with u.. dont 4gt tht u told me b4.. whenever wherever u wanna go. . u hope i'll be there, i'll by ur side, u hope i can accompanying u. but suddenly u strictly stopping me..
my heart is really pain.. i feels want to cry.. .. wat will happend in the future? ? i really dont knw..
i did alot of things cz i hope i will successful in my life.. i hope i can gv u a better life as well.. although i gt nothing right now.. u hope i can gt a cert, thn i go for study.. u said my work is not good, thn i try to change a job. anything u want.. i did it already. what else u wan???
wat u really need in the relationship??
LOVE no right and wrong.. i cant blame u. coz u hv ur choice.. if u r still looking around.. go ahead. but pls dont LIE at me. .
previous experience.. 4 times relationship.. end up i'm a victim.. i dun 1 tis thing happen on me again .. i scared on girls already.. y they like to lie at me?? since i found u... i feel u r really different wit those girl.. u r so nice and so faithful.. i feel secure when the relationship getting started. .
well, everything's changed.. OR i'm the 1 who really can say 'innocent'. .
everyone have their own disires and demands.. they gt the right to choose their life. . doesn't mean once u found me, u must 'stick' wit me until end of ur life.. now i really understand..
"gals always said, guys r hopeless, cant trust so much, guys like to lie."
tht's truth.. guys always make gals crazy, mad, and hurt.
but nowaday...
gals or guys.. all the same.. not only guys will do tht, but gals. . bcz i met so many times b4, it happened around my friends as well...

do wat ever u like to do. . i cant control ur life.. since u r still looking around. . hope u really will found ur happines. if some day u r goin to leave me.. i'll bless u..

... ! ... ! ... ! ... !

speechless.. . ... .. .. .... ... .. . .. .. . .. . suddenly feel stranged.. . . . .. how come tis kind of incident happened on me again??? is tht necessary to do tht????? i'm sad.. .. i'm immune to think so much bout it... ****cool down... tk a deep breath...*** is tht right or wrong???? should i blame on it???? i dun think so.. no point!! it happened d.. blame oso not use.. i guess no body will like it.. the feel is hurting.. really a bit disappointed.. i tot it wont b happen.. NO, everyone are the same indeed. i was so innocent. . . . perhaps.. wat does ppl said is right : "gt 1st time, thn will hv 2nd times.. mayb tht's the 1st time happened on u whn u realized it, but actually alrd N times happened b4.. who knws?"
i've no idea.. i cant control on it.. well, jst let it be.. wat to do?
offcz i trust and believe.. but pls dun disappoint me! i hope no nxt time. . pls dun brk the promise..

day 15

DAY 15 in the training.. am i really suitable for tis job??? i dunno.. hmm.. i feel confused now. . till today, i realized tht, i cant handling all the things along the training.. looks easy, but not really.. i tried my best.. but seems like i learned nothing. how bout the others?? they were the same. .
**i'm blur.. wat the hk i'm thinking?!
anyway.. i've no choice.. i must keep trying to do it.. cz tis is really a nice job.. it's a great opportunity.. i will not gv up..
sigh.. headache. . feels like wanna hv a break.. go for a trip or somewhere to relax myself. . waiting for end of the yr. . planed to go to GENTING. . but.. all the rooms fully booked.. sien.. if dun hv available room.. most probably won't go.. :(

.....................................blank.................................................
my mind's empty right now.. ..

hope everything's will b alright.. (say tis is jst a starting ya??)

TIRED~ ~ ~

tired.. tired.. tired.. the new job really tiring.. cz alot of things need to learn.. it's not easy, and really challenging. (now i can feel that how busy and how stressed and tension u r..)
however.. i like tis job. although it's hard.. but worth it. cz it brought me a new life and a new beginning.
she said.. i look happier thn b4. :)


since the new job i'm lazy to blog... i've alot alot things wanna write it down.. but really lazy.. (tired).. few posts still hvnt yet complete and saved as draft... lol..

MOMENTs IN LIFE

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens; But often times we look so long at the Closed door that we don't see the one, Which has been opened for us

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, Because it takes only a smile to Make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Dream what you want to dream; Go where you want to go; Be what you want to be, Because you have only one life And one chance to do all the things You want to do.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet Enough trials to make you strong, Enough sorrow to keep you human and Enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily Have the best of everything; They just make the most of Everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always Be based on a forgotten past; You can't go forward in life until You let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying And everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, You're the one who is smiling and everyone Around you is crying.

appreciate those people Who mean something to you; To those who have touched your life in one way or another; To those who make you smile when you really need it; To those who make you see the Brighter side of things when you are really down; To those whose friendship you appreciate; To those who are so meaningful in your life.

This is THE MOMENTS IN OUR LIFE.

????????????????????????????

what's goin on?!

what happened!?

????????????????

plain water > dry martini > plain water... ... ???

a glass of plain water... ... so??

nothing.. -_-"

i'm thirsty. . i need it . .

it's tasteless.. (tht's definitely..)

but how come last time it taste sweet ??

it's something like......

Dry Martini.. :-O

and now?

offcz it's plain and tasteless..

... ... ...

so..

where's the Dry Martini??

(>.<) aaih..

OMG~~ Oh NO~ aiyoyo~~

How come so difficult???

.. i'm headache..

it is bcm hard and hard and hard.. .

aaarrrhhh... how ar???

Happy Birthday to ME..

1st time having birthday celebration!

:) thnks dear..

tis is called 'FRIEND' !!!!

wat kind of the friend is this??
i can say u r really shit!
walau....... so 'ba bai' till dun 1 to reply me..
everytime.. whenever i see u online, although jst only say hi to u, but u nvr reply 1!!!!!!!
it's many times~ along tis few months!
r u really so busy till one word oso cant type??? assume tht u r really busy on tht time.. cant reply.. ok fine!!! but i'm sure u will see the offline msg wat??? assume tht u r 4gt to reply.. ok fine!! maybe u really 4gt.. but i think it's not the 1, 2 times my frien! i can tell u is over thn 10 times.. whenever see u, i msg u... jst asking u : hello frien! how r u???? long time no see d.."
is tht the msg annoys u????

i still rmbr last time when we're in secondary school... both of us really close and really friend!! but now...




i'm narrow-minded??!!!
yeah, so wat?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my DEAR..

HaPpY BiRthDaY to U.. o('.'o)

BOOOOOOF... it's EXPLODED again~~~

exam is coming.. (-.-)

T_T .. ExaM is coming.. still hv 4 days to go.. (27th, tis saturday!)
aiyoyo~~ so fast!!! hmm.. tis is my 1st exam.. so i must gambateh !!

it seems like getting worst and worst..
i not dare to think bout it.
i'm really worried and scared.

how come always like tat?
tot everythings was fine..
but jst for a while only.. thn it happened again!

izit all the things will be end like tat?
hopefully NO!!
and i wish it could be bck to the beginning..
if tht is possible to turn back the time..

......

eee... so scary!!!

went for medical checkup yesterday..

and tis is the report...

GOSH!!!! y my lung so dark ????

really scary lei.. i tot somethin wrong wit my health.

whn i gt the report.. i look at it.. i was schocked!!!!!

my first reaction was "Ooo.. My GOD!!! .... wat???"

the doctor looked at me and smile thn he told me..

"dun worry, tis is normal.. if the lung is not in dark, u die already.."

tht mean i hv a lung!!!

i never do any medical checkup.. and nver see tis kind of thing..

so i dunno actually tis is normal.. haha..

:P

lol... so funny..

Good NEWS~

\(*o*)/ i gt the job offered by HSBC. i've been hired!!!! (tot will kena reject again)..
aha... i'm not jobless anymore! ~THANKS GOD!!!!
hmm.. will start working on 25th ( Oh O.. gt something to do lei...)

anyway, i feel really happy.. cz finally i gt a job.. and tis is a better offered as well.. (better thn my previous hell + Fxxx+ Sxxx job!!)
wat a good news... i'm having a nice day~~ hehe. . .

zz..ZzZ..zz..

wanna nap a while.. abit tired!!!

**TO BE CONTINUE**

Mooncake festival.

hmm... long time nvr celebrate tis festival. . (i think almost 10 yrs alrd..)
i still rmbr when i was a child, every year during tis festival, i will celebrate it with my neighbour.. we all playing the lanterns and candles, and eating mooncake.. hehe.. really enjoying.. although its not a special festival. . but i really like it.. it is a nice festival.
since my neighbbour moved out.. i nvr celebrate it until now. . and i nvr think bout it as well.. (tht was 10 yrs ago)..

but..

10 yrs later (today).. i celebrated the mooncake festival again.. lol.. sounds funny.. hehe.. i celebrated it wit she and her nephew at home.. we all playing 'tanglung' and candles.. (sudah besar lagi main tanglung??...) :P so what.. we 'shuang' ar.. hehe... who said adult cannot play lantern??? hehe... (feels like bck to the child ages.. haha..)
actually it was a rainy day... so abit spoilt our mood and our planning... haih...
anyway.. we still enjoyed it.. it's really nice and fun.. .. :)


HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!

man? or boy?

i'm childish, i'm not mature at all..
alot of ppl said tis to me..
equivalent to my age.. i'm suppose a man, no longer a boy.
but i still like a child. (my thinking & the way i talk.)
i knw i should improve it. i need to change it..
to become a 'real' man.. before it's too late..
coz nobody will like a childish man.

9 11

11.9.2008 (911)
another building crashed by a plane????
No la.. . not tht serious.. but it is unforgettable day for me.
bcz start frm today, i'm jobless.
i knw tis will happen someday, but nvr expected it happened so fast..

finally...
after thinking for a whole week, i made the dicision and decided to left the hell job! i left the hell place without any notice, and very suddenly which is effective immediately. i've to do tht. i've no choice. i can't stay at there anymore. everyday feel tension, stress, pressure, strain... i'll be mad if i still continue workin there.

calm down for awhile.. tk a deep breath..
........................
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........
....
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wat the F is goin on??
i'm numbed.. my mind was completely blank.
i really don't knw wat should i do! is it i made the wrong dicision?
it seems like getting worst.. i thought everything's will b fine.
i'm stuck. .
Y? how come??

nothing's mentioned bout me.. nothing's related with me as well. .
used to be already.. wat to do??
anyway, it's not important anymore.. not the 1st time.
i can be the "whoever" .. i don't mind..

hot! hot! hot!

-_- the weather is damn HOT today~

help..

i'm melting~

police 'dai sai'

.... police 'dai sai'....

if we park the car like tis... sure kena saman!!!

so good to bcm a polis.. lol..

MERDEKA~

the most boring festival.. no celebration, no count-down.. nvr intend to do tht so.. cz tht's nothing special.. really dun hv tht mood.. somemore.. alot of "Mr. Ma Chan".. see those face oso sien diao.. opss.. sorry to said tht... but tis is truth..

"aha.. it reminded me of few yrs ago.. went to KLCC wit my friends for the merdeka celebration.. jam like shxx... crowded like hell.. almost 80% M fellow at there.. we all like a nuts hanging around there while waiting for the firework.. adoi.. sien!!! and there's a concert too.. -_-" .. errr.. not interesting at all..
sharp at 12am.. all the ppl like a monkey.. they all like nvr seen the firework b4.. kepp shouting "wooooo... merdeka!!" **annoying**.. and finally.. the firework finished.. quite long (almost 15mins).. after tht we r goin bck..
oh NO!! JAM!!! we started moving frm KL bout 1230am but reached home bout 4am.. really terrible.. since tht time.. i nvr think to go to merdeka celebration (especially at KL)..
so tis is the 1st time i celebrate Merdeka.. **no more nxt time!"

LIFE

wat will happen to my life? wat will goin to be in the future? wat do i really want?
tis is wat i always thinking of.. i'm really anxious and worried bout it. sometimes i can't sleep well and often headache.. my brain is like gonna blow up! i'm kind of sensitive. thts y i easy think too much.

anything will happen, everything will change.. it comes suddenly.. we wouldn't knw.. tht's out of our control.. we can't estimate it. we can't expect it too much. tht's wat we called 'life' !
life? wat is life? is tht wat we want and wat we need? does anyone satisfied? either YES or NO. . tis is wat we hv now. we've to accept it.

"life no take 2", appreciate everythings we hv. although we missed out alot of good opportunities in the past.. but we still keep looking around for another choices.. we still hv the chances to gt a better life.. once found it! go for it! there's nothing to b feel sorry and regret cz everyone has their own demanding and desiring.. tis is the realistic world. there's no who's right or wrong..

life..

i dun really like it.. i'm tired (physically and mentally).. i need a break.. however, i still hv to face it.. cz life's keep goes on.
but.. although i dun like it.. i'm still happy wit it.. cz i gt something tht really cheer me up... :) tht's y, no matter how miserable. my Life's still so GOOD.

adoi... so san fu!!!!!!!!!!!!

work sucks.. work so hard and work like a dog.. eeee...

2yrs 3mnths been working here alrd.. but..

gaji sikit and need to do tis do tat... >paperworks, sales reports, cleaning, receiving bill payments.. which is not related with my job at all.. it make me cant really concentrate to do my sales. i'm here jst like "bungkus bukit, bungkus laut".. workload is more than last time.. somemore long working hours.. haih.. wat de... *speechless*

if wanna earn more need to do alot alot lines.. but nowaday.. although did alot of sales.. commision oso not much.. ..

i'm really tired d..
haih.. ... wat to do?? no matter how beh song oso gt to work..


somemore....
so 'nice' de company.. where to find o!!

MAXIS!!! wat the...

aiyo~~~ wat the... always network busy.. MAXIS really sxxxx! it makes ppl headache, heart attack, bad mood and mad!! call always disconnected easily.. although talk a while only. whn called to someone talking something, no matter how the thing's interesting and funny..
it's spoiled ppl mood lei cz keep disconnected of network busy.. .. really suffering and annoying. .

sometimes hah.. tis problem also will made ppl quarrel u knw.. can u imagine tht, talk few minutes only thn it disconnected, thn redial... after few minutes it disconnected again.. thn redial.. thn disconnected.. continuosly 8 times disconnected for a 20 minutes conversation.. thn.. end up wit arguement.. (i hv tis experiences b4.. cz it happened few times on me last time)
but now i used to b wit it already.. whenever the line not clear, thn stop talking.. avoid any arguement and it wont spoiling ppl mood as well.. (tht's a good idea)

stupid MAXIS.. if the service still like tis (shit)! alot of ppl will gt mad..

so, tht's wat u wanna tell me, tht's wat r u thinking, tht's ur answer and tht's the reason y u r angry and dislike me!

but, do u really care bout my feeling???? think deeply 1st, b4 u say it.

now i really understand! yes, u're right!
everything's doesn't mean to b relate wit me. .

its great to heard tis frm u, cz i knw wat r u thinking of.

U hv ur Own space, freedom, and ur own life..
As Long As u Happy.. :)
jst Do Whatever u Like To Do..

The Corrs - What Can I Do

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, No more aching

No more fighting, No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine

I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

Love me..

i like this song so much. it's meaningful..

1st day in the class (*.*)

today is the 1st day for my EDBA course. . . really happy and excited finally the class is started. i'm really enjoyed it, and i like it so much.. the feel is great. (mayb it is jst the starting..) however i'll keep up tis feeling till the course end.
i'm the youngest among the 22 ppls in the class.. -_-" feel bit bored at the 1st time cz didn't talk to each other.. jst sit there only. but after we all mix around and knowing each other.. they are really nice and friendly, some of them are funny as well..
the course suppose to b start frm 10.am, but everybody came late. so it started bout 10.30am.
but i reached there bout 9.25am. lol.. so early..
the lecturer also very nice.. i not feel boring at all when she teaching.. i'm really concentrate listening to the lecturer. 5pm.. class finished.. yay~~ so tis is the 1st day of my courses..
it's meaningful today...
after go bck, i tell myself, i must very hardworking, study very hard.. i must success!! tis is the 2nd chance for me to continue my study. i must very appreciate it. its not easy but i must do it...

good luck to myself.. STEPHEN TAN SWEE HOE!

F L I R T

i hate flirtatious ppls!!!!!! guys/girls.. whoever! pls don't simply flirting on someone else.. mayb it's fun but it might be hurting other ppls... some of sensitive ppls will easy gt 'mad' (jealous) and it may cause unnecessary arguement, misunderstanding..
i know the feel is nice, sweet and it is fun when gt someone flirting with..

whatever! sorry to say tht:
I DON'T LIKE IT !!!!!!!!

FXXX !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll never step into the place anymore.. NEVER!
it was a big insults for me today!!! wat an insolent!! it never happened onto me before. i'll remember it until forever..wat the hxxx!!!! wat a sxxx place.. go there jst wanna relaxing.. but it spoiled my mood in the end..
i nvr feel tht angry till ran away frm the place.. #+%x$@ !!! it's all bout my self-esteem! and it's made me feel ashamed infront of so many ppls... shit!!!!!!!!!!

i miss you, dad.

it's already almost 1 year 3 months u leave us.. time's gone so fast. it seems like happened lately. i can't forget the last moment.. the moment when u're gone.
17th MAY 2007, early morning 8am reached ICU room.. i was standing infront of u. but u can't see and hear me. that time u were in coma about 3days already.. look at my dad. i know everything is too late. my mind is blank.. wat can i do? wat should i do? i really don'y know.
it's too suddenly.. 3 days ago u still talked to me.. i'm really regret tht i nvr spend my time to accompany u.. i cant really 4give myself till now.. i rather do my things tht time.. i'm such a shit.. till i gt the news frm hospital, u were in coma.
3days later.. doctor told us: "we r sorry..." i'm really sad, i cried.. i knw its too late.. i stand beside him.. look at him.. few hours later, around 1.30pm. warning signal turn to red.. all the reading turn to zero.. u were heart-failure, and u stopped breathing.. OMG! my dad..
its heartrending.. u were leaving us without saying anything.. with peaceful, silence...

I'm sorry dad.. i nvr treat u nice, i dont even care u much, always argued wit u.. like to shout at u.. talked loud to u.. dad.. pls forgive me.. i nvr b a good son.. i knw u were disappointed on me sometimes.. i dont like to listen to u.. hope u dont keep in ur heart..
i miss you, really miss u.. since u leave us till now.. always thinking of u suddenly..
goodbye dad, i love u forever!

Convocation #

since my brother's convo bout 8yrs ago, i nvr attend for any convo (although some of my friends was graduated..) :P and after so long.. once again i attended a convo at MMU in tis 2 days.. btw.. it's not my friend's convo (my dear de friends) hehe... i jst accompanied her only (to be ah 4).. lol..
***congratulations to all of her friends..***

after few hours hanging around there, suddenly i saw my friens too.. (gosh!! how come i nvr think bout them..) a bit paiseh when i met them.. cz i really 4gt d.. then they said :" boh sim la u, come here wit ur gf but nvr come to find us.." **oppss... errrr.... sorry lo...** bilibalabilibala(story-telling) with them a while... thn tk some photos.. hehe... anyway, nice to c u all again..
***congratulations to u > ah kiat, yen peng, yen ting, pei ling...***

i'm so happy on their success.. and i feel excited too.. i'm wonder how's the feeling when i graduate??? dunno how is it???!! it must b feel great rite?? >.< cant imagine tht... hehe.. i really wish tht i would hav tht chance.. (adoi.. need to wait after 1 yr)

I'm SoRry

am i wrong??? i dunno?! i think it jst some misunderstanding.. (o'.')o(-.-) i'm sorry..

:(

feel unhappy tis few days.. dunno y.. no mood to work.. and everythings jst like cant go on smoothly.. hmm....

PRIDE !

(".) I'm so happy today. .

finally.. i gt the news frm UM.. my application for the UMCCed Programme was approved.. thts really a good news.. thanks GOD! Yes! i can continue to study again.

hmmm.. i've been waiting for it bout 4months d.. within tis 4 months i didn't know the status and i also didn't gt any news frm UM.. i called them few times but they asked me to wait.. i really worried lei.. dunno can pass or not!! until today i gt a message frm UM.. "congratulations... blablabla.." when i read the message, my 1st reaction's feel like wanna hav a shout.. \(*o*)/

well, i'm so curious and excited.. hehe.. bck to school life again o.. dunno how's the feel??!! somemore alrd 4yrs nvr study after FORM6. hopefully everything's alright!

and now, i'm feel like going to another path of life.. bcz of u *my baby*.. u bring me to a better life, a better future. u changed my LIFE.

seriously.. last time i nvr think bout all of tis (i mean study).. until i met u!

so i would like to say thankyou to my baby.. thanks for ur support & thanks for ur help.. (actually she found tis for me.. she did all da things for me..) i feel really touch~

i promise to u and myself, i will study very hard and i wont disappoint u.. no matter wat, i will nvr gv up.. dun worry baby..

SUNDAY...

o('.'o) wat a great SUNDAY.. whn i wk up its alrd 2.35pm... wahahah.. long time nvr sleep until so late (since working).. its so good cz weekend no need to work, 'shuang' arh... hehe!!
feel so relaxing... + the weather is so nice.. i like SUNDAY!!

something's wrong? hopefully not..

5.25am.. cant sleep.. insomnia again..
i'm sitting infront of my computer since 3hours ago.. doin nothing.. jst wondering.. and my mind was blank.. wat am i doin?? i gt no idea wat can i do as well..
feel unhappy.. and feel wanna cry.. wat's goin on? wat happened to me? i dont really know. it jst like bcm worst and worst.. Y?? how come suddenly everythings was different???? is tht my prblms? am i think too much?? (I THINK SO.. & MOST PROBABLY 'YES')
where's all the passions gone? i'm dizzy + fussy rite now.. *confused*
i hope to b the prefect one.. . i've tried my best.. but it seems doesn't work.. i failed to make it.. wat should i do? i wouldn't know.. can somebody tell me??? perhaps, i'm useless...
life's jst cant go on smoothly.. feel bad day.. sigh.. i wonder y?! izit i expected too much? (maybe..)
no matter wat, i hope it will bcck to the normal like before.. everythings will be fine..

2 months left..

Aiyoyo.. August d wo.. so fast.. hmm.. feel so excited.. tht's a big day for me after 2 more months.. hohoho... so happy.. really happy.. bcz.. i wont be alone on tht day (i know it.. :P).. . tis is the first time gt someone accompanying me (i mean someone special la..) really can't wait for tht day to come... ehem.. mayb u think i 'sot sot' 1, (wat's so excited o?!?!)... who cares.. i 'shuang' ar... :P hehe..

let bygones, be bygones..
forget bout those unhappy incidents,
everythings gonna be alright.
tomorrow is another good day.

I'm rubbish..

the only one in my life that i LOvE so much,

i LOVE u forever..

hello? anyone there?

4.26am - suddenly wk up frm a dream.. and now is difficult to sleep again. the weather is cool, cz drizzling outside. lying on the bed nothing to do. wondering...
feel wanna find some1 to talk but.. (siao a.. wat's the time now?) whn i login to MSN, frm the 27 contacts in my list, all shown 'offline'. look at my phonebook.. aha... 26 friends only i hv (4gt bout tht, cz they all for sure wont bother me 1. although buddie oso same). and my dear? she need to wk up early everyday, so i dun think i'll disturb her sleeping.
alrite, fine! it used to be for me.'

so tis is my "life circle" .. i dun hv much friends. and dun hv much entertainment as well. so.. my life's quite boring.
some ppl said: "friends no need to much, few best and close friends actually enough d."
hmm, izit?? wat if those best friends are not free?? like me. i only hv 2 really really best friends. and they r my buddie... but thy hv their own life. one was married, another 1 is single but hard to gt him cz always 'disappeared'.. so actually we seldom meet up too, no matter i free o whole week dint go out.
wat bout my other friends? hmm.. gek sim whn talk bout them.

im so jealous+envy for those who hv a lot of friends.. cz will nvr feel alone and boring.. anytime, anywhere.. jst a call/sms can gt a friend easily.. although cant hang out together, atleast they still hv someone to talk. whenever they need someone to accompany, friends always b thr.. rite?
(nothing's more important thn friends.. frienship is the 1st priority.. )
watever..


hmm, how i wish i could hav alot of friends.. mayb someday..

i love u, my dear..

TIME's gone so fast, its alrd july now.. wow! didn't ''discover'' at all tht 1/2 yr gone alrd! but the feel's jst like happened lately. and there's alot of memories tht can't b remove from my mind. hehe.. ofcoz those memories were sweet, meaningful, valuable... hmm, one word i can say is "Happiness"

look back previously, life was MISERABLE and like a Sxxx. Nvr hav a good days and unlucky incidents always happened around me as well.. wat da %&x#@... really fedup sometimes.. i was so lonely, helpless, sadness and hopeless.. i gt nothing at all.. tis is wat i ''owned'' in my life. but now... it's totaly different, everything's changed.

know Y? bcz off u, my dear. since i met you, my life is getting better and feel so GREAT rite now.. its truth!! you "saved" my life! you are the angel of my life! :-) cz its really big different b4 and after being together wit u.. thanks dear! thanks for everythings u did for me. i really appreciate.

hmm, its about 7months being together, its really not easy. and there's alot of arguments, disagreement within us.. however we've been through all of it, moreover our relationship become more closely and tightly and we r loving each other even more thn b4 after arguing for so many times.

dear, u r really nice.. i feel so lucky tht i found u.
someone who's ever so special like u,
someone who's lovely and true like u.
sometimes i wonder, if u weren't in my life, i wouldn't know wat to do.
i'm so glad being wit u and to be in love wit u.


and here's a song for u to express my love to u. (tht i sang always)

I don't know but I believe
That somethings are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
and All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
If I asked would you say yes
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

dear, i wanna say sorry to u too.. cz always made u angry, always hurt u, and disapointed u.. i feel bad on it..
no matter wat will goin to happen in future, i hope we can be together until forever.

i love u, dear.

WELCOME to My Blog..

...hhhmmm... its been a long time i didn't bloging eh.. since the last blog i think it was around 1++yrs ago.. i like to bloging (last time).. but sometimes feel abit lazy.. thts y.. slowly.. slowly.. stop posting blogs..

now "i'm back" again.. hehe... well, offcz 1stly wanna "thanks" to my dear lo... cz she suddenly think of blogging wo... thn made me feel wanna blogging too lo... and somemore i gt nothin to do.. :P hehe... actually i was think to to create a blog b4.. just.. lazy to do it..

errrr... alot of things to say... but... dunno start from where to write??? my mind jst blank only rite now.. :-/ mayb tired & sleepy... i think its time to ZzZ..zz..ZZz... >>>to be continue in the nxt post...